Recently I was reminded how I used to
blog. When I started writing I used to hate the blogs that were only
about the latest releases or contests. (Looks around my own blog now.
Yeah.) I didn't know then I was searching for a connection. I wanted
to find those wonderful blogs that it seemed like folks peeled back
their humanity. Now, I'm not talking soul-deep blog posts, but the
kind where you walked away knowing a complete stranger a little
better. The rants were the best because people really forget to keep
all the filters in place when they're pissed. So, I used to blog like that all the time. One of my most popular blog posts was a tongue-in-cheek confession about my addiction to the Internet.
So, what happened?
I blogged for five years and felt like
there was nothing for me to say anymore. Then I got really busy and didn't
have the time for retrospective type post that could sort of inspire.
Then Oprah went off the air and that screwed up my touchstone.
Seriously, watching Oprah reminded me to stop for a moment and look
within. I know, sounds so touchy-feely but that's who I am and that's
how I refill my well. I take stock of myself to see where I stand.
Usually when something huge hits me between the eyes and throws me
off balance.
As fate would have it...lol So, I'm
taking stock at the moment. I'm looking at the goals I made for this
year and it's not that I can't reach them. I'm pretty ambitious when
I want to be. It's that reaching them isn't going to put me in a
space that I need to be at the moment. My goals are
counter-productive to where I want to be in my writing career. Who
would have thought that's even possible? Goals are bad. Lol
What am I doing instead of reaching my
goals? I'm listening to music, writing emo blog posts and watching
lots and lots of tv/movies. Believe it or not, this is work. Can't
put my heart and soul into something if my heart and soul is on
empty. Took me years to recognize and accept that. So, I'm off to do
more navel gazing.
Will be back later in fine form and
probably with something to sell. Oh, or I just might talk about how
the wait will be long for Double Trouble.
